You always get what you want. Whether it comes in the form you wanted it, isn’t up to you. You give up that control once you decide to ignore your intuition and make decisions all masquerading your true desires. That isn’t to say that you can’t also BE IN control of what happens to you. I don’t know much, but I do know that your intuition is something that should never be ignored.
It doesn’t have to hurt you know? Not all the time. There is already so much that we cannot control, we need to hold on tight to what we can.